Snug inside my cancer cell, unseen.
insulated coma in a dream
will all the lies unfurl at the seams?
hiding from the memories of what they did to me.
ease me of my fears. why don't you,
answer all these prayers? why don't you,
stitch up all these wounds? why aren't you,
as terrified as me?
Head beneath the waves, drown.
rats inside a cage, bound.
is all the world blind, in this shroud?
here is where we're lost never to be found.
(unintelligible blather)
Death will come for me bullets and bombs!
I will take you with me into the world beyond!
death will come for me in the end you'll see!
I will take you with me, take all you want and run!
Sun shines down on faded memory.
peace of mind so elusive.
every single time I'm breaking.
your words are drowning me.
I can't see why you don't understand this like me.
you fail to see clearly.
so foolish of me to believe in you!
I disarm this girl, open your eyes to what you ignore!
What words could I speak you haven't heard before?
Tell me, what must I do?
I fell again for your deceptions.
How kind of you to express your emptiness.
Why don't I just break some glass I had kept?
Where has it gone, all the will in these hands lost? I cannot say.
Where has it gone, all the strength of these lands lost? I cannot say.
Where has it gone, all the hopes and the dream lost? I cannot say.
Where has it gone, all the courage of man lost? I cannot say, it went away.
Frustrated reflections, all but stripped away.
Opens awkward eye, holes within a page.
Wounds that never heal, cause of so much pain.
bleed out the emptiness, no longer afraid.
Third eye opens, swallowed in flames.
Misdirection, through a foggy haze.
Pentagramic offer, drawn with dagger hand.
Asking for protection, etched into the sand.
Summoning the truth, help me understand.
Peering through the veil, this my one demand.
Third eye opens, swallowed in flames.
Misdirection, through a foggy haze.
This dementia, cause of all delays.
New perception, opens up the way.
wait, wait I did not even recognize you
Stay, stay the hardest part is almost over
wait, wait. I did not even recognize you
stay, stay. I'll try and keep this on the inside.
When I first noticed your halo of light,
Fear filled my eyes and my heart with your blight.
When all that I had in this world wasn't mine,
you rebuked the spells I had cast in the night.
Fear no longer haunts my heart the same way.
Tetragrammaton I ask in its name.
Be damned if you ignore the summons I raise.
With fire and sulfur command you obey.
Now you take your leave.